I don't remember how old I was, though I can only guess that I was, maybe 7 years old and up, when I was fond of a picture my father and mother had posted on a wall. I'd always look up to it which is of three cute children model wearing Army, Air force and Navy commissioned uniforms.
The center model with Air force uniform had taken my eyes so much that I had dreamt and desires to become commisioned officer in airforce, as fighter pilot.
I did not know, but God of gods, the Nature had a different plan for me which I did not yet fully comprehend.
I remembered that I also had desired to be a song composer. When I heard very nice songs that touches me I'd pray to God to give me also very nice songs only for His glory. So, soon after I drop out, as I had desired, I gradually compose songs in my father tongue or language at an early age, I think as early as 16 I became a song composer and I was content with it. To me song composer means a person who writes and make the tunes also, and Composed Singer means a person who writes the lyrics, make the tunes and sing the songs. But I've lost many songs as I do not store them well.
I'm more like a traditional song composer, or the past songwriter as I do not know solfas and beats, though my songs can be made with music instruments. Most of which are made out of strong emotions. Only some of them are in English which I do not like to publish it yet.
These days, no new songs comes to me yet, though it may come sooner or later, as I have no and is not really seeking for a relationship but keeping busy in the work I love and am dreaming, and as I do not feel any loneliness also. It's in the hands of God of gods. My philosophy had made me boreproof though I'm physically and mentally strong as I'm healthy by the grace of God, thanks to Him.
Then, after more than 6 or 7 years passed which I am not sure, with all my heart, soul and mind I was seeking a career, or occupation from which I could also make a living as I know my education will not land or take me to where I want to be and give me the profession I had dreamed. It was the time I read Paulo Coelho's book 'The Alchemist,' which had help me greatly by greatly encouraging me in my search.
Then, If I'm not wrong, I desired to write such kind of good and encouraging books, even more than that, and I do pray to God again to give me great things to write only for His glory. And I begin to write my first book, "Lallula, Fairies and Super Beings: A Mysterious Land," in my own language, Lusei. Since, I was asking to God for songs and also things to write, I feel that praying before composing songs or writing will make them good not only that but also I feel that I'm oblige to pray before composing or writing, so in most of my works I ask God for His assistance and telling Him that it be only for His glory.
While writing my first book, covering only few pages, I realize I was not well versed of my own language and then I begin to write it in English. I'm not well versed in English either. Sometimes, there are things I cannot write in Lusei, when I can write in English and also I cannot write in English, when I can write in Lusei, but I continue and still stick to write, the things which I consider I should, in English as I consider my responsibility is universal, but very few, which I cannot write in English are in Lusei. Maybe, and I thought of translating them in my father tongue later and also my mom's.
So, whatever it is I became a writer and I'm content with it again. The work or occupation I was seeking and had found had become my passion, in other words, my love, and my passion or love to it is greatly increased and firmly and deeply sowed and rooted by philosophy and or in other words, wisdom.
The more contentedness comes to me as I believe that God of gods had made me the last philosopher the world will ever see, and I am thankful to Him.
But though I'm content with whatever I am, I desire and looked forward to a higher ground from which I'm currently running away, and I've become a run away son.
After I was writing some of the above and kept it for final touch when I will commit to it, I realize my father and mother had conveyed or imprinted goals in me, for me to pursue and achieve, without force or directly telling me. But I don't know whether they are conscious of what they had done to me or what happened to me by their doing.
Yes, when I was a kid my mother will used to tell me stories from the Bible like Solomon, David, Samson etc. But she may not realize that she had conveyed or imprinted in me a goal, a desire to be wise like solomon. She had told me how Solomon got such wisdom. And I had followed his path to receive wisdom from God of gods. I don't know when but I realize this, to achieve complete wisdom has been one of the goal set for me, not only for me but for all of us by God of gods and I'm content with it. So, all wisdom I possess is the gifts of God.
Realizing how my parents had conveyed or imprint goals in me, now I see parents must take the responsibility to do the same, conveying or imprinting goals in the mind of their children not by force but by action and indirect speech, which they can realize later and make it as their goals. Of course, parents should do that, for 'parents are the first and most important teachers their children can see.'
This way parents may not have children who do not have goal which they (parents) want them (their children) to have, or who are trying to become someone else what they (parents) don't want them to be. Yes, if they do that way that they may be free from such trouble or even if they do not understand them, at least their children may have great dreams, great goals.
The center model with Air force uniform had taken my eyes so much that I had dreamt and desires to become commisioned officer in airforce, as fighter pilot.
That dream had lingered in me until I realize my age and education does not match up to qualify for it. I could be around 14 years old and up, I don't remember my age at that time either, but I remember that I had dreamed and wanted to become the greatest scientist in the line of inventions. I say this, because I believed even when I was younger, on whatever I dream myself to be, I dreamt the greatest things I can ever imagine, as I'm doing presently too. Yes, I dreamt to achieve the highest ground which no one can achieve.
And, I strongly believe, 'we gradually becomes what we dream as we pursues it.' And, 'only by having great dreams and pursuing it we can achieve great things and become great men.'
I was weak in mathematics and need a tip to toe explanation or specially talented teacher for me to understand it. And since I could not continue my education which later I tried to, taking science and maths as subjects again for they are my favorite but most difficult to me especially the maths parts, the possibility to become a scientist seems to end there, after a couple of years from the day I had that dream.
And, I strongly believe, 'we gradually becomes what we dream as we pursues it.' And, 'only by having great dreams and pursuing it we can achieve great things and become great men.'
I was weak in mathematics and need a tip to toe explanation or specially talented teacher for me to understand it. And since I could not continue my education which later I tried to, taking science and maths as subjects again for they are my favorite but most difficult to me especially the maths parts, the possibility to become a scientist seems to end there, after a couple of years from the day I had that dream.
I did not know, but God of gods, the Nature had a different plan for me which I did not yet fully comprehend.
I remembered that I also had desired to be a song composer. When I heard very nice songs that touches me I'd pray to God to give me also very nice songs only for His glory. So, soon after I drop out, as I had desired, I gradually compose songs in my father tongue or language at an early age, I think as early as 16 I became a song composer and I was content with it. To me song composer means a person who writes and make the tunes also, and Composed Singer means a person who writes the lyrics, make the tunes and sing the songs. But I've lost many songs as I do not store them well.
I'm more like a traditional song composer, or the past songwriter as I do not know solfas and beats, though my songs can be made with music instruments. Most of which are made out of strong emotions. Only some of them are in English which I do not like to publish it yet.
These days, no new songs comes to me yet, though it may come sooner or later, as I have no and is not really seeking for a relationship but keeping busy in the work I love and am dreaming, and as I do not feel any loneliness also. It's in the hands of God of gods. My philosophy had made me boreproof though I'm physically and mentally strong as I'm healthy by the grace of God, thanks to Him.
Then, after more than 6 or 7 years passed which I am not sure, with all my heart, soul and mind I was seeking a career, or occupation from which I could also make a living as I know my education will not land or take me to where I want to be and give me the profession I had dreamed. It was the time I read Paulo Coelho's book 'The Alchemist,' which had help me greatly by greatly encouraging me in my search.
Then, If I'm not wrong, I desired to write such kind of good and encouraging books, even more than that, and I do pray to God again to give me great things to write only for His glory. And I begin to write my first book, "Lallula, Fairies and Super Beings: A Mysterious Land," in my own language, Lusei. Since, I was asking to God for songs and also things to write, I feel that praying before composing songs or writing will make them good not only that but also I feel that I'm oblige to pray before composing or writing, so in most of my works I ask God for His assistance and telling Him that it be only for His glory.
While writing my first book, covering only few pages, I realize I was not well versed of my own language and then I begin to write it in English. I'm not well versed in English either. Sometimes, there are things I cannot write in Lusei, when I can write in English and also I cannot write in English, when I can write in Lusei, but I continue and still stick to write, the things which I consider I should, in English as I consider my responsibility is universal, but very few, which I cannot write in English are in Lusei. Maybe, and I thought of translating them in my father tongue later and also my mom's.
So, whatever it is I became a writer and I'm content with it again. The work or occupation I was seeking and had found had become my passion, in other words, my love, and my passion or love to it is greatly increased and firmly and deeply sowed and rooted by philosophy and or in other words, wisdom.
The more contentedness comes to me as I believe that God of gods had made me the last philosopher the world will ever see, and I am thankful to Him.
But though I'm content with whatever I am, I desire and looked forward to a higher ground from which I'm currently running away, and I've become a run away son.
After I was writing some of the above and kept it for final touch when I will commit to it, I realize my father and mother had conveyed or imprinted goals in me, for me to pursue and achieve, without force or directly telling me. But I don't know whether they are conscious of what they had done to me or what happened to me by their doing.
Yes, when I was a kid my mother will used to tell me stories from the Bible like Solomon, David, Samson etc. But she may not realize that she had conveyed or imprinted in me a goal, a desire to be wise like solomon. She had told me how Solomon got such wisdom. And I had followed his path to receive wisdom from God of gods. I don't know when but I realize this, to achieve complete wisdom has been one of the goal set for me, not only for me but for all of us by God of gods and I'm content with it. So, all wisdom I possess is the gifts of God.
Realizing how my parents had conveyed or imprint goals in me, now I see parents must take the responsibility to do the same, conveying or imprinting goals in the mind of their children not by force but by action and indirect speech, which they can realize later and make it as their goals. Of course, parents should do that, for 'parents are the first and most important teachers their children can see.'
This way parents may not have children who do not have goal which they (parents) want them (their children) to have, or who are trying to become someone else what they (parents) don't want them to be. Yes, if they do that way that they may be free from such trouble or even if they do not understand them, at least their children may have great dreams, great goals.
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